In a previous article of May 6th, Joshua asked the question: What is God to you?
When pondering this question I was suddenly reminded of the orthodox view that God is omniscient and Almighty, and that His Word should be taken absolutely literally and adhered to. During my childhood that did not trouble me at all as I have known since my birth that God is a God of Love. I even experienced that myself during a Near Death Experience. And I grew up in a love-oriented church so there was nothing to worry about.
Things changed however when during my teens I became aware of the fact that other people in other churches saw God as a Jealous God, who threatened with hell and damnation when you did not conform to His laws. And I also became aware of the Holocaust. How could such a thing have happened in a civilized society which at the time could still be considered Christian? Many people began leaving their church (or synagogue) because of the question: Where was God when all this happened? Why did He not do anything to prevent this? This must surely mean that God does not exist.
These questions were not my questions, however. I started wondering: What went wrong with the teaching of the church? Not God caused the Holocaust but people who often belonged to Christian churches. And many churches (not all) remained silent while it was all happening. Something must have gone seriously wrong with the teaching of the churches because how else could something like this have happened? How else could all these other atrocities have happened to both Jews and black people, and to the native peoples in so many countries, ever since conquering Christians arrived there? And all that during so many centuries, almost from the moment Christianity was recognized as a religion, and made into the ruling one by the Roman emperor Constantine. And how else could Christians belonging to different churches have started to even murder each other as well? Each claiming the one and only truth for themselves?
No, something must have gone seriously wrong with the teachings of the churches that appeared to be motivated more by the love of power than by the love of God. And that even started messing with the Bible texts themselves sometimes, especially those of the New Testament, in order to make them supportive of their teachings. The parts and pieces of the old biblical manuscripts that had been found had been ‘corrected’ and changed many times over before being copied again and so on and the differences between them are enormous. And also translations show many differences, caused either by interpretation or manipulation. I have mentioned this subject many times already in my comments on this blog and quite a few books were written about this subject over time.
[Of course there is another side to Christianity as well, a very positive side, but that is not the subject of discussion here.]
All this was a reason for me to undertake an independent search, not founded on the interpretations of any theologian or bible scholar. My discovery of the possibility of a symbolic Bible interpretation was of course a great help, as was the knowledge I gained from an interpretation based on Hebrew numerology but most of all from the insights I received when in a state of a meditative focus on a subject.
The mutual communication between writers and readers on this blog proved to be a great help as well. It made it possible to develop a kind of model of a cycle of spiritual development. A cycle of a descent/involution – into the world of matter – and ascension that I had discovered in the Bible stories. That brought the concept of consciousness and awareness to my attention. I am afraid I used these terms rather loosely to begin with, feeling they are important but …. What the bleep is Consciousness? as somebody asked me once. I couldn’t – and still cannot – describe it as I do not really have words for what is for me a wordless knowing. Still, I intuitively knew that these were the right words, but for what?
My model also includes the concept of energy, as waves vibrating on different levels, frequencies, patterns and what have you. I never remember the details as I am no scientist and the essence of things is what is important to me. I had been aware of the importance of the concept of energy already since the nineties of the last century. Everything is energy, including matter, which, as science finally has proven, does not even exist. No matter how deep you go into ‘matter’, everything proves to be a largely empty space with only a few very small ‘balls’ of matter in it. These however also prove to be an empty space with only a few very small ‘balls’ of matter in it, and so on, never mind how far down the line you explore. Neither do time or space exist in Reality, which was a conclusion reached by Albert Einstein, if I am not mistaken.
So what is this world if nothing is real? Buddhists call it Maya, illusion, and Hindus call it Leela, a game. It is also called a virtual reality or a dream. And this dream I recognized from Genesis, where God puts Adam, who until then had been androgynous, both male and female, into a deep sleep in order to separate the male and female sides of Man from each other. No, gentlemen, the woman did NOT arrive later on the scene than the man! The famous rib of Adam is the Hebrew word ‘tsela’, which also means side. And I am pretty sure that that is the right translation here. Nowhere it is said that they woke up after that. Mankind is still largely asleep though some of us are beginning to wake up now.
This dream is the ‘tardema’ that I have already mentioned very often in my articles and it is not a kind of anaesthesia for an operation but the beginning of a cycle of descent and ascension, of gradually descending into ever lower vibratory frequencies, with at the lowest part a stay in the so-called world of matter, and then a rising up again into ever higher frequencies and a return to the world of our origin. With conscious awareness this time.
Our life on earth is a journey in a world that is not real but a virtual reality in which nothing but our losing or gaining of conscious awareness is real. This may also be the answer to the question: Why does not God interfere? God does not interfere because this virtual reality is nothing but a game, or a school as it has also been called. For how could we possibly gain conscious awareness without getting to know the opposites of duality and without going through all the experiences of this world? How would we know the importance of Light if we had never experienced darkness? God does not interfere because in Reality nothing bad will ever happen to us. On the contrary, we will only gain wisdom from the lessons of this school, but we do have to do our homework!
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Looking at it from this point of view makes it easier to understand why we have to undertake this journey. It appears that to begin with we, mankind, departed from a world of High Consciousness but without much if any Awareness. I have heard this foundation of All-that-Is described as: the Zero-point Field of Infinite Potential. And also as a Field of Undifferentiated Consciousness, meaning that it is a oneness that is the same all over, without the possibility of becoming aware of anything at all because there is nothing in it to become aware of.
If this is the starting point of All-that-Is, so to speak, and God IS All-that-Is, then this means that this Zero-point Field of Infinite Potential might be another Name for God. A Name that is different from all the anthropomorphic terms and concepts that we are used to. And that we may still use as long as we remain aware of the fact that there is no One Name or concept that we can define God by. When we are right in our assumption that this term Zero-point Field of Infinite Potential is another Name for God, and in our assumption that God is Love, then Love must be the nature of this Field. And if we assume that Consciousness is another Name for God (which for one scientist was the criterion in order to be able to believe in God), then this field is Consciousness as well. However, to begin with without any Awareness of it. So something has to happen in order to gain this Awareness and this might be, in short, the starting point of a process of creation during which we as mankind finally enter this game of a virtual reality.
It has been said that we are divine sparks, sparks of the Fire that is God, another Name. We, not only humans but everything from quanta to universes and beyond, are all parts of God, points of focus of God, physical or non-physical, who each have our own role to play in this game of gaining Conscious Awareness. Even the physical ones are not really physical of course but only temporarily put on a body suit as it were by descending into the world of matter. The Dutch word for body, lichaam, comes actually from the Gothic word lic hamo, which means something like coat of flesh so people seem to have been aware of this already at the time.
God creates a game of duality and polarity in which all of us, as fractal parts of Him/Her/It (which means we potentially possess all of Its powers) each have our own part to play. We humans put on a blindfold before starting the game; this blindfold is the physical body which Adam and Eve, as mankind, receive by entering into the world of matter, by descending into ever lower frequencies of ever denser energy. In how far this implication of blindness also applies to other life forms in our ‘material’ world goes beyond the scope of this article, not to mention my understanding.
The physical body is ‘or’ in Hebrew, with a numerical value of 70-6-200. This word can also be read as ‘iver’, which means blind, as the number six, the character Vav, can be read both as the vowel o and as the consonant v. This means that we, mankind, are leaving the world of oneness and blindly enter a world of duality and matter in which we will have to come to terms with the conditions of duality. None of this is real but we are not aware of that anymore because this blindness means that our eyes are now closed to oneness but they have been opened to the possibilities of duality. We have also been given a whole toolkit full of tools to help us to discover this world, including time, space and matter, the ego with a full range emotions, karma and reincarnation, which in themselves are not real but will enable us to gradually gain Conscious Awareness by playing this game of duality for all it is worth until we reach the intended goal.
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In a comment I once gave a more extensive description of the game as I see it, which I now quote with some slight alterations and additions:
“I see this world as an illusion, or a dream (‘tardema’). It has also been called a game and indeed it can be compared to a computer game in which all possible choices are already there as potential realities. As such we each will create a different world on the basis of the choices we make and our perspective on whatever this world then presents to us as a result of that choice. When we use a so-called bad experience for instance to help others in similar circumstances the result will be different from when we remain angry and bitter about it.
When we enter the game, we leave our real identity behind and everything we know. We put on a blindfold. In this condition we now have to choose which choice of the first array of choices we want to make into a reality for us and then experience the consequences of that choice. Next we will be presented with a new array of choices and so on. Until game over. After the game we re-examine the choices we made and we may or may not see where it might have been better to make other choices. So we start a new game and proceed on the basis of our conclusions.
That is what the idea of karma and reincarnation is about, I think. You can roughly interpret that in two ways as well as the game is a game of duality: 1) karma is guilt which you have incurred in your previous life or game and in the next one you are punished for it, or 2) karma = action. On the basis of what you have learned from the previous life you decide what you can improve this time. Or descend further if you do not. And so on. It is all a matter of choice. There is no real guilt but only an increase or decrease of conscious awareness that has been lost or gained by our choices.
Since we are only playing a game and there is no real guilt involved, there is no need for salvation. There is just a game which helps us gain conscious awareness, which IS real. And as we get stuck sometimes, as I invariably do, we need all the help we can get in order to reach the final level of the game and bring it to a successful end.
And that help is available. We only have to call the Help desk.
And when we get really stuck and cannot bring this game to an end on our own anymore, Someone is sent to us to explain the rules of the game again very clearly and to play a round of the game with us in order to show how it is done. After that we will be able to continue the game on our own again, with some help from the Help desk from time to time.
Of course it is clear that time, space and matter, and karma and reincarnation, are only tools to help us play the game as none of it exists in reality. But as long as we are still living within the reality of this game, and we cannot possibly grasp the Absolute Reality yet, these concepts are good tools to work with.”
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This model roughly describes the journey through this world of virtual reality but does not yet show the result of this journey. For the world we return to is of course no longer a world of undifferentiated consciousness, a world of an undifferentiated oneness, but I have come to believe that this World has been changing right along with us! It has become a World of Conscious Awareness, and of Love and Unity in diversity. We humans have travelled different roads, and often been at odds with each other, but finally we will all arrive at the same goal. Entering the city of the New Jerusalem through 12 different gates, each ‘tribe’ passing through its own gate, as someone once remarked in a comment.
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There is however still another factor I did not consider yet but which became obvious in an article + video of which I may have shared a link already:
https://documentarystorm.com/the-simulation-hypothesis/
In this video there is an interesting discussion about this virtual reality, which was explained with an extensive variant of the double slit experiment, in which the presence of a Watcher was all important. And that may be the same here as well. This might also prove to be the answer to another point that was debated in the comments on this blog: ”Is God within or outside His creation?”
I looked at this subject from the viewpoint of God as All-that-Is. As such God had to be inside his creation. However when we look at God as the Father who watched the progress of his sons in my article about The Other Son, then the Father can be seen as outside his creation. His creation then being the virtual world. So He is inside All-that-is but at the same time outside the dream as the Watcher of the virtual world, who has to watch it from the outside. And the Watcher is absolutely essential in order to enable us to have all the experiences we need to bring our journey to a successful end, for if no one is watching, then our world ceases to exist. This also was shown by science.
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We, as the divine sparks of God, are the representatives of God in this virtual world. We are entangled aspects of His being that experience all there is to experience in this world in order to gain Conscious Awareness. As in Reality we are not separated from God, nor from each other, but an integral part of God, and God is All-that-Is, then Who is making this journey through this world of discovery? Is it not God Itself, the Watcher who keeps the game going. but who by doing so also simultaneously experiences everything all parts of his creation experience. And who in this dream world is embodied by us as so-called individual gods with a blindfold, who to begin with stumble blindly into this world of ever lower vibratory frequencies and open our eyes to the world of duality, but then gradually find our feet and start rising up again, gaining Conscious Awareness in the process. All this changes the Field of Infinite Potential but without any Awareness into a Realm of Unconditional Love and Unity in diversity, which is Consciously Aware of Itself and of all that led to this gaining of Conscious Awareness. And in which the divine sparks have been reabsorbed by the Fire they came from and never left in Reality. Where all levels of consciousness finally flow together through the process of Time that is No-time, and Place that is No-Place and all diverse forms of creation that have evolved into One Formless Consciousness with Full Awareness.
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So, seen from this perspective, could it be that maybe God was NOT yet Omniscient and Almighty from the very beginning but slowly gaining Conscious Awareness by this process of sending parts, sparks, of Itself into a virtual reality of time and place in order to safely experience everything there is to experience through them, and to evolve into the Omniscient and Almighty God in this way? Within the timeless No-Space of the Point, which is the translation of the Hebrew word Reshit with which it all began in Genesis 1:1: Bereshit bara Elohim et ha shamayim we et ha arets, which can also be interpreted as: With a point God created heaven and earth.
And may we not see this process then as the Evolution of God, and as the purpose of Creation? From God to God through different phases of being God? within All that is – has been – and always will be One after all?